Hi Guys, So I recently finished the structured education program and now going through Dr. Schechter's workbook. The obsessions in my mind have drastically improved. I no longer wake up thinking firstly of my foot or how my big toe is doing, and I don't have any anxiety about my toe anymore- which is funny because it was the most serious of all. I feel generally less obsessive. But I am s.tr.ug.g.l.i.ng with fear of pain in relation to conditioned responses. One of my major doubts about TMS were my MRIs which Dr. Schubiner says are normal, but the lack of improvement makes me question a lot. Anyway, the main thing now that I am dealing with is a fear of pain. I have some kind of knee pain that is not consistent. Sort of around my knee cap; under it. After jogging, it always hurts to bend at my knee going up and down the stairs. Always. I started jogging maybe a month ago to tackle my fears, and the first day I did the pain was so bad i couldn't even bend my knee. And then, I had an extreme surprise last week when after jogging i felt zero pain at all going down the stairs. But with every step I took I had an excessive watchfulness about my body- and its that watchfulness I don't know how to turn off. Nowadays when going down the stairs in my house, I feel a twinge of fear at even the thought of going downstairs. A part of me says "it;s going to hurt" then I have to talk to myself and tell myself I am okay. Then, of course, it hurts. Or if it doesn't hurt, the worst part is that I am afraid that it will. Then, I know that when I bend my knee weirdly, it hurts. Sometimes it happens when I'm not even thinking about it; which reinforces the watchfulness. The other day I went on a walk. I did not hurt at all, but was watchful and afraid that I would the entire time. Any thoughts about this? Then with my foot; I have generally always gotten arch pain along with walking for long distances. Some doctors back in 2014 said it was because of flat feet and in my own mind I;ve assumed that it was because i kept getting sprains in my left ankle every year and being on crutches, and that I have basically just overworked my right foot. This sounds like a legit explanation; no? So for about seven years I have had constant arch pain linked to walking for long periods of time. It is hard for me to tell myself- no- I mean what do I tell myself? I know that people who suffer from pain that is ON all the time have something to redirect to, but what do I do about this conditioning? And this constant watchfulness; the constant and I mean CONSTANT fear of pain? The other day I was dancing, because i like to- and the whole time I could feel my right foot tensing up and hurting, and then my right knee- just being afraid of what will happen. No pain, just constant fear. Sometimes when sitting, I'll find some part of my brain noticing that my right foot is more tense than my left. Which is how it's been for years. ALL THE TIME. How do I switch this off? The conditioning; what do I say, and most especially the constant watchfulness and fear of pain? I mean what am I to do with going down the stairs in pain- specific to that, or taking long walks and the arch starts to hurt?