Angel, the peer support here isn't lacking but I think your posts and pleas for support are getting a little drowned out. The lifeblood of this site are the two main forums; the General Discussion Forum and the Support Forum. These simply attract more traffic and therefore more responses. It may be a good idea to gather your questions together and post on the Support Forum (and in your initial post letting people know you are doing the SEP, and perhaps too the books you've read. This gives people a better grasp on where you are in the learning process).
The other thing I would say is a huge part of recovery rests exactly on the kind of experiences you are having now. There is no magic bullet to overcome insecurity and the like but instead we learn about why we feel this way, what triggers it, and most importantly how to nurture and heal and love ourselves through it to a place of strength. For many of us this is a work in progress particularly given the demands of our lives. Many people here are enmeshed in complex and challenging situations, myself included.
To that end it also does well to use the search function to explore issues you are struggling with and to contribute to those threads. I cannot emphasise enough how vital it is to engage and to try to help and support others. At its heart TMS really is all about relationships. It's not an individual venture.
I hope some of this helps. I really am spinning plates big-time at the moment (read My Story for the lowdown) but I don't like to see sweet souls such as yourself suffer.
dede, such a small minority heal through the book cure. For most of us it is a longer, slower process but this is ok. Healing does take time but as it comes, it is sure. My best advice at this point is that you relax and ease the pressure on yourself because it is counterproductive. Every single soul who has ever healed has been where you are now. Take some comfort in that my dear.
