Suffered for 5 months

5 months ago I was newly retired looking forward to the many adventures on my horse. I am an avid back country horse rider.
I had a pain in my right side, which I figured was gas and went on my way. In November I was shopping and had what the doctors said was a seizure. Test were run, mri, eeg ekg echocardiogram on heart, nothing was found the cause. I became anxious and fearful. The side pain got worse an a UTI was found. I also had sinutitis. I was given amoxicillin for the sinus and two weeks later Nitrofurantoin for the UTI. Side pain got worse and went to left side. I couldn't sleep, night sweats, burning skin sensations, lump feeling in throat, shoulder pain, pins and needles arms, legs, hands,scalp, bowel movements every time I ate... Face felt numby, lips tingled.. might I add all at the same time. I was given a colonoscopy and upper endoscopy, which I had horrible gas pains and pains in ribs afterwards. Some things like the skin sensations and scalp tingling have went away. I started getting short of breath, lung doctor said I was ok ( I'm a smoker so freaked me out , I am trying to quit) . My feet turn bright red, doctor doesn't know why. My stool has been checked, blood test after blood test has been done and nothing can be found except for the cervical stenosis and ddd I've had for years. I am anxious , depressed and scared. I found the TMS and decided to research, I need some help and quickly... Can anyone , anyone at all reach out to me? I want me back!

 

Welcome MommaCat!

Certainly, some of your symptoms can be TMS. The right side pain moving to the left side, the numb face and tingling sensations are most likely TMS.

You've been through a lot and it's normal be "anxious , depressed and scared."

The first step is to recovery from TMS is your mindset. You decide to take charge of your symptoms. Do not allow your symptoms scare you. Keep fighting back by living as active as you can.

In this interview I explain the steps to recovery from TMS in more detail. Hope this helps.

Watch Me Coach Omar Pinto! (fredamir.com)

 

Yes, I have been through a lot. The fear is over whelming me. I have never been a crier, prided myself in always going on. I've never been sick except for some horse related injuries, nothing like this. This has totally taken me down and rather quickly. Thank you for your response.

 

TMS is an opportunity for deeper introspection and learning new knowledge and ways of facing life's challenges.

Also, there is a reason why you hurt, where you hurt. Here's a post I wrote that explains more.

https://www.fredamir.com/single-post/2016/10/13/why-you-hurt-where-you-hurt

 

You are so kind to take the time to help me. Not many people would. I spent my career helping parents and children in middle school and I often wondered if my good heart would ever be repaid, I see that it has.
I awoke this morning short of breath and sweating and actually called the lung specialist because I was sure they missed something, only to be told he found no obstruction in my lungs. All breathing test were normal.
When I suck in my stomach( checking to see if it hurts) it hurts.
At this point I question my own sanity.
I will follow your advise and do what ever I need to do to get better. I have got to get me back! I have way too much to do to let this get in my way.
I wrote down my fears last night, and boy, did I have a lot.
Fear of having another seizure. Fear of having to give up horse riding. Fear of the shortness of breath. Fear of why I have pain in my neck, shoulders, arms.
I feel I'm falling apart... I mean who has all this craziest?
Thank you , thank you for all you do.
The world would be a better place if everyone was as kind.

 

I don't mean to bother you, but even though someone has severe degeneration of c6-7 and central stenosis and formical stenosis the pain can heal? I one was recommended for back surgery and completely got over it. I had neck pain 8 years with arm pain and completely got over it, but I didn't have all this gastro stuff with it. It's not a sick, it is pain in the chest and left and right side abdominal pain that comes and goes. I am reading your book and just had some questions

 

Since you did not and do not take back pain seriously, your mind needs to give you something that will really worry you.

Once I got used to back pain and did not take it seriously I ended up with sciatica. Once that did not bother me too much, I got knee pain and so on.

Regarding spinal abnormalities, this is what the American College of Physicians says they are normal “abnormalities” and not responsible for pain.

https://www.fredamir.com/single-pos...of-physicians-spinal-abnormalities-are-normal

so nothing to worry about.

 

Thank you. I will let you know how it goes. I am a God fearing woman and I believe my prayers led me here. Thank you again for using your time to answer my questions.

 

I think you will appreciate watching this video I made about hardships and miracles. It connects going through disabling pain and the miracles I experienced, including discovering TMS.

Hope it will give you more hope and encouragement.

https://www.facebook.com/316482208548931/posts/1612354938961645/?d=n (Log into Facebook)

 

Thank you, yet again. I worked thru my pain yesterday, I made myself ride my atv over the farm to check the horses and cattle. I also weeded my flowers. I kept telling myself it's just TMS. The pain seemed to come and go. This morning I awoke with a headache and the tightness and clicking feeling in my throat, but no shortness of breath nor abdominal pain. I got up, of course my anxiety wants to kick in ( I guess it's anxiety, I never really had this problem before) and kept saying over and over I hate this pain and I need to carry on. This has totally jerked the rug out from me. I'm going for a drive to try to clear this head.

 

Fantastic!

Symptoms will shift around. No worries. Stay focused on living your life and doing what you want.

Keep a record of your successes and review them at the end of each day to build your confidence.

Keep moving forward!

 

It is hard to keep focused with the pain. It consumes me. Makes me miserable and so hard to keep on keeping on. The face and throat sensations is so distracting. I also have like a burning sensation in my mouth.

 

Try this: You already made a list of your fears. Now make a list of your wishes.

What do you wish to happen in the next 30 days? Come up with the best-case scenario.

 

1- ride my horse
2- horse camping
3- Go to Texas to visit daughter
4- Go to St. Thomas Island with my sister for a month
5- go kayaking- Atving
I had a bad day yesterday. I went on a drive with my husband, something I love to do. My mind kept focusing on my pain, the sensations in my mouth.
I sat in my beautiful horse trailer and cried, no I waited and begged God to take it away. I ask God why I had to suffer so much. I pleaded, I begged , I bargained.
I know I am depressed and I know anxiety is rearing it's ugly head.
This morning my heart was racing, my breathing heavy, I was sweating. I could feel pain in left side, it then went to chest pain and then arm.
I kept saying this is TMS. I felt sick at my stomach.
Dear God, I can't go on like this. I have so much to do. So many things I want to do.
I went from camping, remodeling my house , retiring to this. I am a shadow of the woman I once was.
I look in the mirror and I don't recognize myself. No smile , just a sad unhealthy woman and this has happened in 4 months.
I am fixated on why I have this abdominal pain, I am fixated into thinking did the colonoscopy cause it? Did the antibiotics? Did rubbing my stomach causes? ( Insane I know) I sound insane.
I have got to get back living.
I went from unloading hay and endurance riding to this!
I am angry! I am so angry!

 

I know I am rambling, I've just never felt so bad in my life! I am totally committed to TMS. Although I can't understand how it was brought in when I've been stressed other times. I've tried to understand.
Was it retiring? Was it my son having a child out of wedlock and the emotional trauma of not being able to see the child? Was it my best riding suddenly abandoning me? Is it my marriage? What brought it on? Was it my insane amount of time I googled "seizures", then all the other symptoms?
Was it the fact I thought my life was over because they said I couldn't drive for 3 months?
What the heck has happened to me.
My friends and family are stumped.
Here I live on the most beautiful farm and planned on helping my father, who is 83 farm it. He is in better health than me!
I guess you can tell by my post I am frightened! I want to get better, I can't fear this.
I took some thyroid supplement for two days and my stomach pain is over the top this morning. Now stupid me fears I've done something and my thought have went wild, I'm not taking it again.
I don't take any medicine after the antibiotic scare.
I don't know, just seems all this stomach stuff happened after the antibiotics and I googled their side effects because I was afraid to take them. Now I think I have liver problems.
The what ifs are over the top, I feel crazy, in pain and just want to live again.

 

Even this...why fearing? What about love and devotion? Just because it's done that way doesn't mean there isn't a better way.

 

Lots going on here. You can overcome TMS by taking action and showing your subconscious mind that you are in control.

When you allow self-pity and victim mindset take over, it only feeds into TMS.

First step:
Your wish list is a good one.
1- ride my horse
2- horse camping
3- Go to Texas to visit daughter
4- Go to St. Thomas Island with my sister for a month
5- go kayaking- Atving

Write on a paper and post it. Look at it as often as possible, close your eyes, imagine it, live it, feel it. This will help counter some of the tension.

Step 2. If you did not design your Rapid Recovery plan, watch my interview and do it.
Watch Me Coach Omar Pinto! (fredamir.com)

Step 3. Take this TMS questionnaire to determine what are your TMS triggers.
Questionnaire | rapidrecovery (fredamir.com)

Do the above action items. Show TMS you mean business and are serious above getting well.

See this challenge as an opportunity to learn and grow.

 

describe religious people who try to obey the rules of their religion and to live in a way that is considered morally right.

 

Lump in throat feeling gone now to get rid of this mouth sensation and neck and arm pain.

 

Taken to an extreme, it becomes another form of Goodism