Hi there I am searching for some help as my symptoms have gone through a period of such improvement and then today I came crashing down with more severe symptoms that I haven't had so badly for a while and I'm hoping someone can help me as I am struggling to uncover the psychological elements, or at least how to calm the psychologically elements down for real at the moment. This is largely to do with the fact I am unable to change 2major stressors in my life. I have leg pain, sciatica symptoms and have been totally engaged in the TMS approach since end of April and like I say have made good progress. Today I went back to work after a week's holiday (I am a teacher) and I did not have a particularly 'difficult' day but as almost as soon as I was home the pain increased. It was my husband's birthday and I had made a cake etc for him so he arrived home after picking up my one year old son from nursery. We were having a cake etc when my mother-in law called round with a present for him but uninvited I hasten to add! My mother-in-law is a great cause of tension for me and I recognise this but I struggle with what to do when I feel tension mounting in this type of scenario as it seems like such a mundane situation and I realise I tend to berate myself for getting 'wound up' by something I cannot change. I wonder if anyone has any advice here as I can't have my mother-in-law triggering my pain as she certainly isn't going to change. Secondly an issue I am struggling with is my work (school for 11-16 year olds) who are not accepting my request for part-time hours. They gave me part-time for one-term only (after maternity leave and then one term of sick leave due to my then supposed ' back problems')which means that while I am part time currently is is only temporarily, as the next academic year, which is September here, means I have to go back full time. I know I am 'angry' about this but have to be 'allowing' about it as I had no luck applying to 2 other schools for part-time, so due to deadlines for handing in your notice I am obliged to go back full-time in September. I am unable to not work as my husband is a teacher also and doesn't earn enough for us to live off his wage alone. This means my one-year old in nursery and with my mother-in-law whilst I am in work full time, which thanks to Sarno's HBP I recognise makes me 'angry' and I am struggling to accept the situation as I feel quite forced into it. Although I can see that if I continue to dwell on it and over analyse it I won't be helping my healing journey which sometimes feels so nearly there! Sorry for the long post but any suggestions or ideas on books to read that may help this type of issue that is fuelling my symptoms and pain? I have read HBP and SteveO 'pain deception' and working with an online programme by a TMS therapist here in the UK. I don't have a therapist I visit regularly or can talk to, hence by posting for help here! Many thanks for any support.