At the beginning of this journey I had a big decrease in pain because I understood that two things were at play : either I have something structural and it will heal or I have neural pathway pain and i can influence it calming down. now, two years into my journey with psychogenic pain, I feel stuck. I have one sensation that terrifies me (hip/low back). Today I don’t have pain and I have NO CLUE WHY. Yesterday the pain was so high. I just feel like I’m losing my ability to affect my pain level. And developing the unhelpful narrative that I have some sort of disability if I have to lay down or rest or check out mentally because of pain. I’m exhausted with the cycle of hope and despair. if anyone has any little nuggets of hope, my brain would really appreciate it.