First, thanks to all who have helped and encouraged me - on the forum and in PMs. I have the TMS personality to a "T" and my main symptom is irritable bladder, or really mostly just very frequent urinary urge (but I don't actually go that often). I feel stuck and I'm very depressed and anxious...I'm sure it's actually about other stuff but it feels like I'm depressed about my symptom. One thing I get stuck on is that with urination, everyone has to urinate; it's not like pain - so what do I do with this symptom as far as when to go or when to ignore? But trying to ignore feels like fighting it to me. I'm confused too because TMS literature says don't fight it, don't be afraid of it...so should I just say please, keep feeling this way? There are times when the feeling/urge fades, but I'm still SO obsessing on it waiting for it to come back...which then of course it does. A whole other thing to add to this mix is that I'm pregnant - yup, so frequent urination is a real pregnancy symptom, but I'm feeling how I felt before pregnancy with this urinary thing so I know it's not just pregnancy. I'm about to start taking antidepressants again because I'm losing my appetite, my ability to care for my daughter in some ways, etc...and it's really bad to be so depressed while pregnant. At the same time there are risks with the antidepressants, although small. I have OCD too, so the obsessive loop is very difficult to break in my mind to even do the TMS work fully...and meds can help with that. I am rambling but would love to hear people's honest thoughts and PLEASE if anyone has dealt with frequent urination (maybe I've asked this before), what did you do about the actual real need to urinate? Something that really sets me back is obsessively googling about this symptom and getting directed toward horror stories (like interstitial cystitis - by the way, about a year ago I went to two urologists about this who did NOT diagnose me with that or think it was serious), wondering if maybe I do have something physical after all, should I explore bladder meds, etc. But the TMS theory makes more sense to me. How do I stop googling?!? I'm being really vulnerable here which is difficult, but I'm in a bad spot. I wish I could enjoy this pregnancy that we tried really hard for but it's been pretty awful.