I am so tired of being in pain and it's so hard to stay positive. I am exhausted, both from the constant pain and from the lack of sleep - due to the pain and my youngest child. They take turns waking me up all night, and I am aware of my anger over this. I thought I had a break through a few days ago. I was having some weird facial tingling and numbness all day, much like I experienced at the dentist a few weeks ago. I didnt get too distracted by it, and it went away. The next day I had a rare two hours to myself and I did some good but hard journaling. I felt a lot better that day. But the pain has gradually returned to where it was. I want to try to move more but just standing upright is too painful. I've started riding my bike a little but am unsure of how else to get moving. I am so frustrated by not being able to do the most basic things Anymore. I keep reading that I should think psychological when the pain comes, but the pain rarely leaves! I also feel like my family and friends are losing their patience and sympathy for me since I am refusing surgery and haven't scheduled another dr appt. I try not to show that I'm hurting but its difficult when I can't stand upright! They think this TMS thing is silly and I am just being stubborn.