I have largely accepted that I have TMS for about 20 years. I am positive that there is nothing structurally wrong with my body, but I have never had much success getting to the root cause of my symptoms. I was able to function pretty well, but always lived with a certain level of pain and depression. I took Cymbalta, even though it didn’t seem to help much. Recently, after discontinuing Cymbalta, I had a complete meltdown, physically and mentally. My pain is the worst it has ever been, and I have all the symptoms of major depression. I resumed the Cymbalta 6 weeks ago, but I’m still feeling awful. I’m now thinking the medication might not be the issue. Maybe it was just a convenient time for my brain to wreak havoc. I have tried my best to treat this all as a TMS flare up, but the pain and depression symptoms are so severe that I cannot function. I am unable to work or do any activities I enjoy. I’m lying in bed afraid every morning, wondering how things got this bad. I’m trying to get active with TMS recovery exercises, but I can’t shake the thought that it’s been too many years of pain for me to recover.