I'm in the middle of a fear relapse. Allowing it to wash over me isn't having the same profoundly strengthening effect that it had yesterday. Do any of you other TMSers constantly suffer from this OCDish, "something is terribly wrong with my body and I just can't put my finger on it" vibe that you constantly get? I'm trying not to think physical...but it's hard to imagine how fear, inadequacy, and questions of self worth and other psychological principles can make the large joints in my body "snap", "crackle", and "grind" so physically!!! While my neck and lower back have been hurting for weeks, months, and they snap and crackle a lot, I am convinced that they are 110% TMS. My right thumb and left ankle often hurt for no apparent reason, but even then I think TMS. But it's my shoulders that R>L grind and grate and snap, oftentimes loudly, and at odd moments, that I have trouble chalking up to a mindbody process. I feel like a major let-down to TMS authorities (including Dr. Schechter) everywhere. Why can't I just kick this?!?!? I am so frustrated and scared. My life has come to revolve around feeling better for months now.