Hello everyone, I'm looking for help and I love reading this website---I feel like I'm on the right track. I have no life anymore. The only places I go are to my doctor and my psychologist. Quick intro: I'm female, 28, spent the last 5 years having panic/anxiety. Battled depression on and off since teen years. People pleaser, never speaks up, says yes when I want to say no, will feel 'sick' if I can't tell someone "no." I've had a range of odd pain and pressures in various body parts that the doctor never found causes for. I began to suspect TMS a year ago when I started having intense pain in one ear that was coming and going and definitely felt stronger when I was anxious. It could feel like something was going to burst in there. It made me feel nauseous and the only relief was putting olive oil on a napkin and plugging my ear with it - never left the house needless to say! No hearing problems, no infection. The doctor suspected it was psychosomatic. But I wanted a CT scan. The scan showed nothing and I never had that ear pain again. In its place came jaw pain, head pressure, diaphragm tightness, heavy chest, neck discomfort, OUTER ear pain, but never the same inner ear pain again. But odd sensations persist. I say odd because they're impossible to describe. Like I would feel numb on one side of my face but it WASN'T numb. I easily had 500 panic attacks over that sensation. If I tried to ignore it it would start feeling like pressure as if to say "pay attention to me!" Felt like my cheek was going to explode. Then that disappeared, too. The thing I'm struggling with now is FATIGUE that apparently has no medical cause and happens the same time every day. Between 1-4pm. It varies in intensity but makes me feel like it's hard to breathe and I just feel weak, like I'll pass out, but my body isn't tired. It's in my eyes and head. I can pretty much count on feeling it every day and I wake up dreading it. But here's the strange thing: if I am preoccupied with another sensation like the ones I mentioned, I don't get the fatigue. It's like I just have to think fatigue and it's there. Other days I will have another ache or pain and spend all day fixated on that. When I feel this afternoon fatigue I don't want to leave the house. In my mind there's NO WAY I could go grocery shopping, for example. I'm preoccupied with thoughts of passing out. It's not just feeling tired and it's very hard to describe. I've felt this in the doctors office and he got the nurse to check my blood sugar (because the 'fatigue' came on so suddenly like a low blood sugar attack) and it was perfect. The 'fatigue' also makes me feel like my chest is heavy and I can't breathe so he checked my lungs, oxygen, all fine. But the fatigue isn't the thing that keeps me from going to the shops or functioning either. If it's not fatigue, it's one of the other sensations because I attach medical significance to it and fear what will happen. For example if I have a bit of neck pain I won't go to the shop because I think neck pain could mean an artery problem, blood clot, stroke. ANY ache, pain, pressure frightens me and i don't want to leave the house. The tiredness makes me fear I'll just drop. Even though I can actually run laps in my backyard with it, like I said its in my eyes and head. But it makes me feel so out of it that if I go out with it, I panic. I also feel like it's probably not safe to drive. I don't feel like sleeping either. If I do try to "sleep it off" in the day, I wake up with a racing heart like I've been shocked awake or I get that sleep paralysis sensation where the eyes are open but I feel like I can't move. I'm depressed because I can't leave my house. I don't know what to do anymore. How can it be just in those hours? I'm going crazy. It feels like something is seriously wrong with me and I can't stop obsessing about it. The doctor said its a form of anxiety manifesting. The funny thing is having a panic attack about it makes the fatigue go away! Lol. I'm not lightheaded... But I feel like I could pass out! Like I'll just get so tired I won't be able to move. I've had moments where I feel paralysed by the fatigue and can't even walk to the kitchen for a glass of water. But it's not REAL because I CAN move. Come 5pm, I feel fine. 10pm I have energy to do anything. It's so strange. Can anyone give advice, relate, piece together what's going on? I feel like this is my last hope! It's so much appreciated. I didn't even know TMS was a thing. It would answer a lot. But there's still that doubt in my mind that there's something else going on and that anxious thinking alone is draining. Thank you!