I am re-reading Steve Ozanich's book The Great Pain Deception and learning a lot. I realise that I definitely have had a "shadow eruption" (compulsive shoplifting as a teenager) of which I am deeply ashamed. I've also started to (as Steve Ozanich writes) "despise the people I depend on because codependency is threatening to ego." Lots of guilt there. How on earth do I deal with this super powerful ego? I've tried therapy however my anxiety/TMS exploded as a result. So I'm taking a break for self preservation. I have been a very angry person my whole life. I'm still searching for what repressed anger I may have (most probably an unloving father) but I don't know how to face it or deal with it. Is journalling enough?