well, after week 33 I was doing pretty well. My mom called (which she never does) and that set me back and then back and then some pretty awful memories..... which pisses me off...I did everything I COULD think of to get back on track. Triggers can really throw you for a loop. I missed the Saturday forum and went to Chicago as planned...sitting on the bus I had to use some serious self talk and finally started talking to my (inner child) I should be able to go somewhere without losing it. I'm not good at writing on line. So I'm trying again. I have no problem reading or writing but, connecting oh yeah a problem...more work to do without overwhelming myself.