Hello everyone, It's bin 6 days ago that I wrote my last post. I didn't get any reaction to that. It made me furious!!! I got the feeling that I don't mather. (this is happening through all my life) When this happen I become stubborn, cruel, hard for others and hard for myself. I need this to prove myself that I am right, that I know, that I can, that I exist. When I made myself hard, I don't have to feel anything, no one can hurt me. I don't have to show the anxious, the doubter, the lovely, the goodist. I control my emotions. My pain gets very extremely. I am sorry for my awfull thoughts to you all. Now I am getting hot and I feel a lot of sadness.