I accepted tms awhile ago, felt small improvements, but the last month is terrible again. I had this similar in 2005 for 3 years, then improved enough to not consider it too much of a problem until 2 years ago when it returned after much stress. Improved a little 6 months later, to only return very strongly a little over a year ago and to remain stuck. Other than a small reprieve of improvement where I was finally walking again for exercise a few times last March, then pain came back again. In July I quit physical therapy and searching for physical answers, and focused on tms and writing and meditating. Improved a little. But now no relief for a month now. I admit to more stress when occurred, but still, I'm working through it. Why am I so bad!? My issue that bothers the worst is pelvic floor pain of poking, needle/knife like stabs ( feel like a voodoo doll) and burning that comes and goes, and pressure. Uncomfortable all day and night. I feel I am losing faith. No matter what I read or watch, I can't feel hope anymore.... My mind thinks things I don't want it to...I have some back pain and legs in too, but this pelvic garbage, for me is unbearable, and controls my thoughts because, well, it just physically hurts so very much. I fear at times doctors "missed" something and there is something wrong in my pelvic floor, or an unfound infection. Though I I know this is unlikely, Epescially when I experienced this before and improved and considered myself healed enough to not worry about it. So logically I know i should be ok and heal. But I feel so hopeless and trapped in so much pain in a body I feel like I'm trying to run away from. I wish I understood the pain physically and what hurts. Though I know emotionally that's probably not helpful to know or understand. And I wish I could understand why I am so stuck this last month and feeling worse. I feel like my quality if life sucks, everything is a struggle from feeling so uncomfortable all the time. I am in a depression currently from this and feel trapped. Someone please help me understand.