I have had two or three minor successes with the various treatments - mostly various forms of psychotherapy - whether it be journalling, speaking to a qualified therapist in person or just thinking about what the cause could be. A couple of weeks ago, I had what has become a regular build up of wax in my ears. Sometimes it is just one ear, sometimes both. It tends to happen around February/March time (the build up to my birthday) and also in September/October. For the last couple of years (since I discovered about TMS) I had thought that it was likely to be TMS related, but couldn't see any sort of pattern. Finally, a breakthrough. I had the realization that around my birthday I would be told by my parents and my brother that they loved me - something I never believed, due to my quite horrible and forgettable childhood. Also, around my parents and I would often go to see my brother and his family over in Wales, where I would also be told that they loved me. In less than a week, the wax that had been building up in my ear had disappeared. I am still having massive back pains, but I believe that I will get to the root cause of them and they will be gone as well. Every time a symptom is resolved, I feel it's magic. I can't praise and thank Dr Sarno enough.