Hi! I really hope you could take some time to help and advise me! I'm a 25 year old man from The Netherlands, suffering from lower back pain for 2 years now (haven't played sports, danced et cetera). It started when my life was quite stressful. I couldn't walk normally and it was (is) awful. I had a lot of trigger points in my butt muscles because of the strange way I was walking after the initial onset of the pain (I made the mistake not to use painkillers). Now, after two years I'm doing much better (less pain on the right side, almost no pain in my legs), but the pain in my left butt comes back again and again and again (maybe 10 times I thought I was fully recovered). The specialists don't really undestand what's wrong, expect one thing: the endorotation of my left leg/hip is not good, it's too tight. So there's an imbalance compared to my right leg. The problem is that after they've fixed it, it tightens back up. Today my physio (back expert) said it's time for me to go to an orthopedic surgeon and get an MRI at the hospital (this happened today after I was in a lot of pain when he was treating me and I started crying because I'm afraid/anxious/confused). I know about TMS and learned that what they find on an MRI is often unrelated to the source of the pain, so I'm not sure what to do... My physio says I shouldn't just look into the psychological aspect, he thinks there actually is a problem. I've played a lot of sports so he could be right, but I don't know (I think there really is something wrong because when I'm in pain, I almost can't walk. Probably my main question is whether a TMS patient can have that kind of problem? Not being able to walk, let alone run, if I would try to run I would just fall because the butt muscle is extremely tight. I few months ago I ran for a bit and that was ok, but when the pain is there, I think I can't 'push through'). I have a jumpers knee, left leg, so that could also be contributing (probably not). BUT: I've had a lot of trouble with RSI, I was/am anxious/neurotic, I care a lot about what other people think, I'm sensitive, shy, I know TMS is an option. Thinking differently helped me a lot with my RSI and mindfulness also helps me. I'm not sure what's the wise thing to do right now, I know about the concept of TMS and my pain is still there. The MRI is on the 3th of may. I'm ready to look into the unconscious emotions I'm repressing but don't really know how. Is it true that hypnotherapy is the easiest way? Or am I making a mistake by starting to ignore the pain? I feel like I'm alone in this complicated journey, I would be great if an expert would give me some pointers in the right direction. Thank you! Jos PS. I have a lot more information of course, I you need additional info or find anything unclear, please let me know.