Since determining I have tms, my struggle is what emotion do I pick on to start healing? The one where my father abandoned me at 6? Where my mother tried to commit suicide when I was 12, but saved her and then she never spoke of it again. Was it the birth of my special needs son, now 25, whom I feel guilty not seeing all the time due to his living in Alaska and me in North Carolia, or my mother successfuly committing suicide leaving me alone to raise my special needs son or losing the best dog anyone could ask for at the age of 5 to cancer. So many choices...what should I focus on to start healing? What am I supposed to do once I've settled on a skeleton from a closet? Stare at it, talk to it? Cry? Nothing will change what happened. So it was ticked away neatly in one f my mind drawers. So now that they are, what do I say, how am I supposed to feel so my road to recovery can get started?