Day 25 so far...

[futuredancer]

Day 25... Lots of changes from the emotional point of view. I have been able to see that I have so many layers of conditioning and self-inflicted pressure it would be a miracle not to have pain. I realized the person I present to the world and see in the mirror is not the one I truly am, deep down. I haven't been in touch with the real me in decades. And I confess not to know exactly how to bring her out now. I just know I hate what I have done to myself as well as the puppet I became in an attempt to be loved and recognized.
The pain is still there, sitting on my left hip. I can feel all the tension around my lumbar region and legs and I don't know how to shake it off. I am 100% sure of TMS counciouswise, but i guess it didn't reach the uncouncious since I still have pain. I will keep journaling, reading the books on TMS and participating in this community, which is great. BTW, I loved Nichole Sachs interview. Thanks, Forest. It was really helpful. And I am considering psycotherapy for an extra help with my journey.

 

[Stella]

You are making incredible progress. Look how deeply you now understand yourself. The time frame is different for everyone. Be patient with yourself.

I have not been 100% pain free but did find a significant reduction. Then the pain comes and goes based on my current emotional world. Depression has been a major problem all my life. With this program I have been depression free for a numer of months.

The last month I had a back slide so I am working my way back up. The depression returned but I have the tools. I basicly stopped journally getting side tracked on other life issues. The journally is so important in connecting the past experiences with the thoughts today that cause the pain/depression.

Keep up the great work.