here i m again, after day 3, i stop journaling. cuz i thk i need a break..if u keep on journaling u just gonna keep recaling all ur emotions, n being stressed and depressed..this is no good u need to have ur happy life back.. that recently another incident strucked me...i tried to tell my fren who i thk is TMS sufferer about TMS theory.. but she become very offended and rejected it completely. she confronted me that i m accusing herself to lead her in pain.and she just couldn't accept that all these 20 years, she herself has caused herself so much pain. she began to cry.i stopped my lecturer immediately when i saw her crying. and i try to say maybe i m wrong i guess i had touched her scar, where she must have a serious trauma during her childhood, n i led her to recall it..thats why she cried. after that i been feeling guilty about it..i tried to act like nothing happened and avoid saying TMS stuffs. but it is of no use, cuz when she saw me..she trying to avoid talking to me..n i can c her tears watering up her eyes,whenever she talks to me. i wanted to apologize to her in person. but i have no chance of doing that.. as few days goes by, i tried to reinforce my thoughts that its not my fault at all. i been trying to help her wholeheartedly and i din do anything wrong..i tried to justify my guilt..but i fail.. then i tried to focus on doing something else, such as playing guitar and drum.. it helps. it helps me to deviate my attention of my guilt. and as time goes by, i become more confirm that i din do anything wrong...the reason behind is the girl is very sensitive..and she has her own ego.. i remembered Dr sarno said 20% of patients would be better left untreated..n support with only psychotherapy..cuz their repressed emotions is more serious than others.