I've been experiencing the most severe anxiety I've ever experienced in the last week due to really big life stressors going on (Death in the family). It got so bad, I haven't been able to eat much, been having gut issues, losing weight rapidly, my stomach constantly feeling sick, panicking, insomnia, and unable to sit and enjoy anything. It is horrible horrible anxiety. It's so bad I've been having to take high doses of benzodiazpines just to get the anxiety under control. Today I read through Claire Weekes' "Hope and Help for your Nerves" and I was able to eliminate the anxiety/panic almost COMPLETELY by using her method of floating past the anxious feelings and thoughts. This might sound bizarre but I could literally feel all the anxiety/panic energy redistribute throughout my body. My body felt incredibly drained, weak, and exhausted. Not long after, all that energy just went right up into my head where it is right now in the form of extremely severe depression!!! I feel completely trapped. I've even considered go to the ER room. It's like no matter what I do, I'm going to be suffering something horrible. I can have depression or anxiety but I can't end both. Best I can describe it is it feels like a dark cloud from hell hanging over me. I can't feel an ounce of peace. ? Why is this happening now??? I've been sitting here crying harder than I ever have before because it's so stressful and I'm having such strong thoughts that this is NEVER going to go away and I won't be able to bear it. My sadness seems to focus back and forth between my life stressors and the depression itself. All I know to do is to desperately try to research posts on TMS depression but nothing helps. What do I do???