My separation with my wife creates a lot of stress for me. We have 3 children and a house together. She ended our marriage because I have been dealing with tms for several years. I had surgery 2 years ago in the back. She ended up finding someone else and got separated from me. It is now 6 months ago. And we have gone back and forth between wanting her and later me. I still love her and want her back. I have some personality traits that are perfectionist, will be good, bad self-esteem. I feel powerless because I don't think I can handle it alone (poor self-esteem) I want to correct the mistakes I've made in my marriage (Perfetionist) I want to show her how good I am. I think I can do better as a father and as a husband. I feel bad about being with him all the time and at the same time give me hope to come back. I'm not usually jealous but I am in this case. I'm constantly thinking about what they're doing when they're together. I can easily see how my personality traits are expressed here. But I don't know what to do. I want my family back and I want her back.