On Day 37 I read The first words about days of rest and self care and instantly thought oh no, not another 'nothing' day! In fact it wasn't. It was just introducing the concept of self care. What a reaction though! I hadn't realised I was so driven to do do do to get better. Then reading about self care I found my eyes pricking. I used to do lots of creative things for fun but they don't seem worth it any more. I can't quite believe I'll have the pleasure I used to of just sketching, painting or modelling - I was always pleased with whatever I did, but now the result matters (I know it doesn't really). As for caring for myself, the thought of giving myself a warm hug was mKing me tearful. So a good discovery for day 37! Now day 39 and I'm getting nervous about the end. We ARE flying across the world to see our daughter next week, but I've booked business class as I continue to have lots of pain and haven't managed to sit for more than 2 hours (that's an achievement!). I embarked on this wonderful programme to get rid of pain and I haven't done that - YET - but I've learned a lot about myself with more to come so it's been worth it a thousand fold. AND I've just had a 2 hr work session with someone where I didn't think about pain once! Would appreciate your ideas about next steps though. This programme has been my life line for 6 weeks.