It is interesting how I did something for myself before even reading today's SEP education. I went to the park, meditated a little bit and wrote a poem. It all took me about 45 minutes but it surprised me that I felt the need for it without reading what I was supposed to do according to SEP. However the problem is that I did it because this is the second day of a relapse. After almost 10 days of feeling so much better, that could be also noticed by fewer posts of mine, I had a stressful day of staying at work while enduring pressure in my head and weakness in the neck. I also woke up with a sort of an anxiety attack and couldn't eat much in the morning. Terrified of what is going to happen tomorrow, I ask how do you get back to feeling better again? One of the reasons why I think it happened is the fact that when I felt better I went back to putting a lot of pressure on myself even though I was aware it is not good and I forgot that the importance I give to tasks or events, is way too high. Am I thinking right? Could this be the reason for the setback? I also have another question: Clare Weekes talks about acceptance being the key to cure yourself, and I'm afraid I don't know how to accept the state without fighting back. What is the difference? How do you know when you accepted something?