I'm brand new to TMS. I'm 9 months beyond a series of epidural injections for two herniated discs. Was getting better but the pain never went away totally. Then a week ago I fell off the mountain and I'm back to crippling sciatica. This morning I started noting each individual area of worry, sadness and anger that I was feeling in the days leading up to the flare up and it's filling a small notebook. I also started thinking about when my problems started and I can trace it the milder symptoms back to my late 20s (I'm in my 50s) and the turning point (when I went from symptoms that were irritating, like numbness and tingling, to symptoms that changed me from an active runner to someone who now has trouble walking for than 50 feet) to a single event: the sudden death of my father a few years ago. I have been in therapy, lots of it. I was in psychoanalysis for 15 years and ultimately rejected it because it didn't alleviate my symptoms, which were panic, GAD, social anxiety and major depression. The inadequacy and impracticality of Freud's version of the talking cure is why I have difficulty with some of Sarno's assertions, but I can work around those things. I ended up tackling my issues with Schema therapy and CBT. I'm better now except for the GAD. But in the intervening years since my father died, as my mental health has gotten remarkably better and my functioning in relationships and work has improved, my physical health has declined in direct proportion. I am still entangled in conflicts both with some members of my family and with my own mind in terms of guilt, regret, hyper responsibility, resentment and perfectionism, to name a few. It is not a great stretch to consider that these unresolved issues, combined with my fundamental personality, has simply been rechanneled through my body. I saw my pain management person last week, who was nonalarmist and left what I want to do next up to me. More shots if I want them, or PT, or wait it out. Also saw an acupuncture and trigger point therapist, which did nothing to help. I am willing to give this program a shot.