victoriab1301
New Member
Hello everyone, this is my first time posting here! i have had thumb pain and forearm pain for a little over a year now, it started at the beginning of quarantine after i got laid off from my job. i began playing a bunch of video games, knitting, using my phone and lots of other activities with my hands when i started to develop pain in my thumbs. i ignored it at first but it kept getting worse until i had to stop doing the things i enjoyed, so i stopped gaming indefinitely. ive tried it all since then, ive rested for months, ive gone to so many physios, doctors, chiros, specialists, ive tried cortisone, etc with very little success. i have had this pain before and it went away after some time, i believe the longest i had this before was around a month and then it eventually left. i also have a history of other symptoms that are linked to TMS, the most significant being IBS which i had for months before i finally got over the fear and realized it was anxiety. i discovered tms about a month ago and ive noticed a difference, the pain is minimal for the most part aside from the occasional flare up, the pain seems to always be worse on one side and they alternate. most of the time im able to accept that this is TMS because of the pain moving around, the lack of results ive had from medical professionals and a bunch of other evidence but i am having a very hard time with the fear aspect. even when im able to recognize that its caused by my mind i get scared because i feel like im not allowed to think about my pain now. im at home all day alone and its very hard to take my mind off of this pain, even when its very minimal or even gone i still think about it and i dont know how to get out of this habit! im doing things i used to do (i typed this whole thing, thats something i never would have done a month ago) but i cant seem to get rid of the pain fully, ive only been able to prevent it from getting worse during activities. i also think im putting a lot 0f pressure on myself to heal faster because i want to get back to working and living my life again but im very scared if i get a job this pain will get worse (even though ive done lots of activities at home that havent made it worse). i would love to hear your story if you've been through something similar as well as tips to get over the fear, im scared of the symptoms a bit still sometimes but im also scared that im causing the pain by obsessing about it too much, which makes it harder to take my mind off of it. i feel like im going a bit crazy so words of encouragement are welcome too! lol
