It's been some time since I posted on here and things have been going pretty well overall. I've had relapses but have overcome them fairly well in spite of a few wobbles but now I feel I'm at a bit of a crossroads. Although I have been fairly pain free, beyond a good walk everyday, I have not done any other exercise and if I am honest I have continued to be ' careful' about what I do. In some ways, the better I have become the less willing I have been to challenge myself and the enjoyable experience of feeling physically comfortable and out of the severe back pain which dogged me for so many years. Anyway, I'll cut to the chase. I have always wanted to to do Roller Derby and a neighbour finally persuaded me to go to a local group. I was definitely apprehensive and journaled about that but I did a lot of affirmations and visualisation in the weeks running up and I felt genuinely excited to be going. I went and had a great time. I found it quite difficult and physically hard to do some of the things I needed but I had no pain during the session, which was on Sunday morning and everybody there was really welcoming.I left feeling positive.Later on Sunday evening I ached a bit, acknowledged to myself that I had been a little anxious and congratulated myself on how well I had done. I kept on telling myself' your body is strong and healthy, you can do this.' On Monday morning I felt fairly comfortable when I got out of bed but as the day progressed I felt stiffer and stiffer and today, Tuesday, I think I feel stiffer again to the point where I have had to struggle to put my socks on! In fact, I nearly gave up and asked for help. The thing is, it's not possible to ease yourself into something like this, you're either doing it or you're not. You can't approach it incrementally. So, strangely, I feel relatively ok mentally and continue with my affirmations and re reading Dr Sarno's book and watching him on YouTube but I could really do with some extra help here. Am I experiencing TMS pain or is this just normal muscle soreness after doing a very physical activity after years of doing nothing more than long walks? How will I know and how should I approach the two different things? I do not want to give up, I feel like I have set my shoulder to the wheel and will be feeding TMS fears if I am nervous about going again. This is something I really want to do and I want to be able to do activities I love but have been scared to do. Any advice would be very much appreciated.