Hello amazing TMS community. Everything I have been reading in this forum continues to both humble me and give me hope that I’m on the right path to recovering from 10 years of chronic back pain. I’ve never been one to engage much in forums like this, so the simple act of posting is helping me get out of my comfort zone and overcome some of my insecurities/ fear of rejections/ perfectionist tendencies etc. I’m a week into the structured recovery program and felt compelled to write a post about my relationship with exercise and physical activity. While I get the sense from Dr Sarno’s suggestion to “resume all physical activity” that a lot of chronic pain sufferers stop being active do to their symptoms. I think I’ve struggled with the exact opposite...I’ve been active, an athlete my whole life...and over the years, have developed what I think I would call an exercise addiction or dependence...nothing anyone from the outside would view as unhealthy...but the more the program has helped me explore some Of my conditioned thought patterns and tendencies, the more I realize my mindset towards exercise has not come from a place of self compassion and self care. Over the past two years, I have been obsessed with fixing my physical symptoms. I’ve struggled with extreme lower back and nerve pain, my sciatica and numbness left my dragging my Left leg around for three months. Yet through it all, I remained extremely committed to exercise and physical therapy...to the point where my guilt if I missed a day, was almost as debilitating as the pain itself. I had spinal Surgery in January and was exercising again within days of my surgery. So, part of my process in working through this program has been to attempt to shift my deep rooted attitudes towards exercise and physical activity. Stopping all of my physical therapy home exercises has been a major challenge, but super helpful in attempting to shift my mindset. Starting to be aware of my emotional attachments to Exercise and attempting to move my body from a place of enjoyment and self love, vs a place of fear (ie fear of getting fat or unfit) has been one of my biggest challenges so far. But I can sense a change is underway, and I’m really excited and proud to see it happening. If anyone else has struggled with the flip Side of “resume all physical activity”...I would love to hear from you!!!