Monte H.'s article was good today. I like the idea of non-allowing versus allowing. I definitely am in a cycle if restriction. My thoughts generate tension. I know I am in a restrictive behavior pattern but not sure exactly what it is. I am rigid pretty rigid in some ways. I also am certain I have a chronic attitude that is restrictive. Maybe the attitude of "I can't because ..." I wrote to my indecisiveness. I feel very insane. Over analyze choices. Just last night I spent over an hour reading about SMART TVs. I usually think I will make the wrong choice. I often think products will be faulty and service providers are scamers. I don't trust much which is becoming clear. I don't trust myself to make proper choices which has let to researching. I always feel very drained and nauseated after being online. It is a compulsive behavior and it probably contributes to TMS symptoms. Is this a perfectionistic behavior pattern? Trying to make the perfect choice which often leaves me making no choice at all. I want to be informed but not obsessive.