I admit that I've had some serious doubts about recovering completely from my CFS/Fibromyalgia. It's easy to feel like it's going to go on forever. However, I'm coming to a point of learning to accept and embrace my current circumstances, without giving up hope of recovery or just giving in completely. I'm just accepting that it may take longer than I think, and it may not be a straightforward, linear journey upwards. One exercise that helped me was to create a life plan/goals for myself if I continue to have the CFS/Fibromyalgia, so I have a sense of purpose and direction. Then I also wrote out a life plan/goals for myself to do when I get better. I just realised that I don't know when I will completely recover, and stressing about recovery might actually make it worse - as trying too hard could make me anxious. I also don't want to put all my life on hold until I get 100% better. I'm coming to a point where I'm accepting my circumstances, but also thinking about the little things I can do each day that will improve my condition - for instance doing the TMS Wiki, regular relaxation exercises, eating a healthy diet, pacing myself with regular rests, and doing some exercise. I've also been considering ways I can respond when I get caught in depression and anxiety, or have a relapse of severe fatigue. I watched one of the TED talks about pain today which gave me renewed hope of recovery, and helped me to keep going on the TMS recovery journey… as it reminded me that pain is all created in the brain, and we can shift our perceptions of pain in remarkable ways. Watching videos like this are so important to keep hope alive for me! I hide my emotions from quite a few people, but especially my housemate (the one I often talk to). I've just been avoiding her the last couple of days as I've felt quite tired and depressed, but tonight I'm starting to feel a bit better. I just find it hard to be real with her as I feel like I don't want to be a burden. When I'm feeling depressed I tend to just keep to myself and talk to my online friends - especially those who suffer from depression and understand what I'm going through.