Hello to all. After a summer I go back to my habits, to my work. I come back with my family, my daughter goes to school this year and my son is 10 months old. I came home and new pains came with me. This time in the lumbar area. And so I went in six months from sciatica to pain in the shoulder blades and a week ago I have pains in the lower back. I feel destroyed. I feel guilty because my family needs me and I'm stuck again. I cry. I despair. I'm really bad. And I feel that everything I've learned in these months has not helped. I went to the doctor who said that the cause is muscular and is due to the fact that I held my son for too long. I can not calm down. I can not distract myself from this pungent pain. I can not believe it happened again and I can not tell if it's due to Tms. I would love to consult a TMS doctor. But here in Italy they do not exist and now my convictions falter. I only have this forum that has given me so much strength in the past and that now seems so far away. Where did I go wrong? What is happening to me? I think my problem is my family and my job, but now I can not do anything to change things. We are going through economic difficulties and I have to go to work. And taking care of children also takes away so much energy from me. I'm sorry to have to say these things, but this forum is the only place that can understand my discomfort. What would you do in my place? I do not know what to do.