Trying to be fully present here. So these are the feelings I am having right now. I am in the middle of another TMS relapse. I am riding a tms relapse that is conditioned by the thanksgiving and christmas holiday. I get triggered by this time of the year for some reason. Loudon Wainright's III song "Suddenly its Christmas" is something I can identify with. I need support to remind myself that its TMS. I have been living with this pain for so long that when it comes it requires reprogramming to get through. I am a father with 2 kids and I recriminate myself when ever it comes since I feel guilty for the extra strain in places on my wife. I am my worst enemy and I need to help with giving myself TLC. Any suggestions are welcome and appreciated. I wish everyone the powers of discernment and relentless curiosity as you struggle with similar pain. Thankful I found this forum.