Muskey1867
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Relapse after 3 years pain free
After 3 years of being pain free my life was going great. I suffered with
Back pain that went all the way down my leg and then into my foot. It felt
Like someone had put my leg and foot into burning hot lava then put a
Blow torch onto it. One night I couldn’t sleep and came across the book crooked
Which talked about other methods to relive back pain. Since I had gone to everyone traditional
Including surgeons who told me I’d be like this for ever I thought why not try something
Different out of desperation. I didn’t try Dr Sarno right away. I tried another thing where I basically didn’t bend for a year and my spine became so stiff it almost cracked in half when I moved a little.
Finally out of desperation I tried Dr Sarno’s books, I read them and it worked. Each day it got
A bit better I could feel the blood going to my leg and foot. Eventually I started to exercise and
After a few months I finally had my life back after two years of laying on the floor and
Crying myself to sleep.
Then at the end of March 2022 after 3 years of no pain I have back pain again.
It started with muscle spasms in my glut and right calf. Then became pain that moved
Between my calf and what some would call sciatica nerve in my glut area.
The pain started shortly after my entire family contracted COVID. First it was my kids then my
Wife, then I got it last. 4 weeks after everyone had it I got it. I spent a solid 7 days in bed with a high fever. I felt dizzy for about two weeks after COVID was gone. I felt like those days when I had back pain. Completely helpless unable to work or focus on much else. Then I finally got the COVID symptoms under control after about 3 weeks and then just before I was about to go on a vacation with my wife and kids the back pain started. It progressively got worse and I immediately thought it was TMS. A lot has been going on that may be causing this. First off, 6 months earlier my wife was diagnosed with cancer. She has gone through treatment and has recovered since. Also, i was given a promotion with a new position that was extremely high stress. In fact it was the job I had worked my whole career for. I won’t go into the details about work but for the past six months it’s been high stress but I achieved the goal and the stress is over now as of 2 weeks ago. Additionally, within the last two years I’ve taken over my parents finances as their age and health aren’t good. I found out they were in considerable dept and I solved that issue. So yes there is a lot going on in my life.
I knew this was TMS so a week after the pain started I started reading the books again. I started journaling again about everything. Prior to COVID I was working-out 7 days a week but stopped when I got sick with COVID ,then the back pain. Now, after a bit of time off and after re-reading the books I’m back working out again but I still have pain.
I know it takes time, i know you shouldn’t focus on the pain or be discourages by relapses, but I can’t figure out why this happened. All of the obvious things don’t seem to be causing the pain. I’ve considered them deeply. I’ve thought a lot about the past, ( death given my wife’s cancer scare), work, family finances. Although I have had improvement I seem to be stuck.
It’s not getting worse but I am no longer getting better either.
I know that I have to just keep with it but I could use a bit of advice or help with this last bit.
Thanks
After 3 years of being pain free my life was going great. I suffered with
Back pain that went all the way down my leg and then into my foot. It felt
Like someone had put my leg and foot into burning hot lava then put a
Blow torch onto it. One night I couldn’t sleep and came across the book crooked
Which talked about other methods to relive back pain. Since I had gone to everyone traditional
Including surgeons who told me I’d be like this for ever I thought why not try something
Different out of desperation. I didn’t try Dr Sarno right away. I tried another thing where I basically didn’t bend for a year and my spine became so stiff it almost cracked in half when I moved a little.
Finally out of desperation I tried Dr Sarno’s books, I read them and it worked. Each day it got
A bit better I could feel the blood going to my leg and foot. Eventually I started to exercise and
After a few months I finally had my life back after two years of laying on the floor and
Crying myself to sleep.
Then at the end of March 2022 after 3 years of no pain I have back pain again.
It started with muscle spasms in my glut and right calf. Then became pain that moved
Between my calf and what some would call sciatica nerve in my glut area.
The pain started shortly after my entire family contracted COVID. First it was my kids then my
Wife, then I got it last. 4 weeks after everyone had it I got it. I spent a solid 7 days in bed with a high fever. I felt dizzy for about two weeks after COVID was gone. I felt like those days when I had back pain. Completely helpless unable to work or focus on much else. Then I finally got the COVID symptoms under control after about 3 weeks and then just before I was about to go on a vacation with my wife and kids the back pain started. It progressively got worse and I immediately thought it was TMS. A lot has been going on that may be causing this. First off, 6 months earlier my wife was diagnosed with cancer. She has gone through treatment and has recovered since. Also, i was given a promotion with a new position that was extremely high stress. In fact it was the job I had worked my whole career for. I won’t go into the details about work but for the past six months it’s been high stress but I achieved the goal and the stress is over now as of 2 weeks ago. Additionally, within the last two years I’ve taken over my parents finances as their age and health aren’t good. I found out they were in considerable dept and I solved that issue. So yes there is a lot going on in my life.
I knew this was TMS so a week after the pain started I started reading the books again. I started journaling again about everything. Prior to COVID I was working-out 7 days a week but stopped when I got sick with COVID ,then the back pain. Now, after a bit of time off and after re-reading the books I’m back working out again but I still have pain.
I know it takes time, i know you shouldn’t focus on the pain or be discourages by relapses, but I can’t figure out why this happened. All of the obvious things don’t seem to be causing the pain. I’ve considered them deeply. I’ve thought a lot about the past, ( death given my wife’s cancer scare), work, family finances. Although I have had improvement I seem to be stuck.
It’s not getting worse but I am no longer getting better either.
I know that I have to just keep with it but I could use a bit of advice or help with this last bit.
Thanks
not, by-the-way). You mentioned you're journaling. I think that's great. If you're not familiar, I strongly recommend Nichole Sach's Journal Speak method. 
