Anyone astute enough will notice that it's more than a week since I posted Day 1! I had to work abroad over the weekend before last and was very busy with little Internet access in my down time. Anyway I'm back on track and have been doing journaling and have found it interesting and to some extent emotional though there is still a way to go to get deeper into those feelings. I find myself writing about events rather than my feelings about them, which I suppose is the nature of the repression. I have a question about massage. I know the programme says "stop all physical treatment" and I understand the importance of this (and have stopped seeing my osteopath for the time being even though she put me onto Dr Sarno's books!!) However, i was having deep tissue massage before this latest episode, and it helped me with my posture and my performance in my job. When the morning back pain started, I stopped these massages because I worried that she had caused it, "broken" something. I have been scared to go back ever since. I am now wondering if going back would be a way of showing my subconscious that I am not afraid. Would it confuse my mind if I tell it that the physically, the massage is to help with my posture and confidence, and mentally, it is to stick two fingers up at my unconscious??! Thoughts great fully received!!