Day 5 Random collection of thoughts and progress

[jazzbluescat]

Was lying in bed last night and was thinking about 3 things...

1. The worst medical advice I have ever been giving - This was definitely in the early days of my so called "RSI" when my doctor said that I will just have to live with it and if it gets bad enough get surgery in maybe 15 years. What a load of crap but a great way to condition me into thinking this is forever (good way for me to keep going to specialist so they could have more $$$). After reading The great pain deception I realize that this one piece of advice is probably a massive contributor to ongoing pain. He told me, he was qualified so it must be true. What a load of crap...currently recondition myself and am believing that he is wrong. A this time my family was also moving on from this current doc for various other reasons to haha.

2. That I still don't post enough on these threads. Don't make my own posts because of my pre conceived conditioning that I don't need to talk about my feelings because 'no one really cares and there is no point'. I also have grown up to feel that 'theres no point complaining or seeking sympathy, there are many people out there far worse than you. I also don't post enough onto other peoples posts - again just the feeling of theres no need to share or I don't want to be to cheesy and happy crapy. Again a complete miscalculated way of looking at everything in order to keep my self image. The people on here are great and I want to get more into posting with everyone.

3. I have abandoned my splints when sleeping and playing PS3 for 3 nights now. My hands haven't felt this good in a long time something is defiantly working (the something is defiantly the TMS work I have been doing). Had a big day yesterday with lots of guitar work at school, lots of typing and then at the end of the day I went to help out at someones house in prep for staff Xmas do. spent about an hour pulling out weeds - I admit I was scared (after last gardening expedition gave me a 'locked hand for a week' but kept telling myself not to be scared and I would be fine (was still scared though even though I tried so hard) and now today I am absolutely fine

Well thats me, please excuse the grammar as I just belted out what was on my mind, no proof reading or any of my perfectionist ways coming to the equation.

Peace and love
Jazzbluescat

 

[BruceMC]

I have to agree with your number 1 thought about the doctor who preconditioned you to think your RSI would inevitably lead to an operation in 15 years because I've heard about this from so many other people with "aches and pains" of one sort or another. For example, I heard from a guy who went to an orthopedic surgeon about the pain in his left knee. After the inevitable MRI, the doc told him to "put up with it" for another five years, but then he'd be a candidate for totally knee joint replacement surgery. Come back then but in the meanwhile just hurt and bear it. Now, I don't see him much because he's totally abandoned physical activity which inevitably caused him pain. Talk about an authority figure like a doctor setting you up for continuing pain ending in a surgery you may not really need! A lot of this chronic pain, I'm convinced, starts with some kind of auto-suggestion when the patient is already in a very suggestible state of mind due to some recent trauma or continuing stress that's finally gotten to be too much to bear. The orthopedic surgeon never bothered to ask the guy what he was going through psychologically at the time his pain developed. Bingo! His sick father in his 80s had just moved back in with him in his one-bedroom apartment. This is the kind of stuff that traditional medicine doesn't take into account when they diagnose chronic pain disorders; in fact, they completely edit that out of the picture.

Glad you current in the process of reconditioning yourself and that reading Steve Ozanich's Great Pain Deception helped you better understand the role of conditioning in the development of stress-related conditions like your RSI.

 

[nowtimecoach]

wow jazzbluescat - Day 5 and you've got some relief. Congrats on pushing through on the gardening even though there was fear. We need those experiences to keep our motivation going! I just caught myself today with a limiting thought from before - and then the idea of doing the activity still brought up trepidation. Sarno says we have complete recovery if we resume all activity without any fear. Well I'm not there yet...but slowly and surely I will. Thanks for posting. It helps all of us!!

 

[Msunn]

Thanks for you post jazzbluescat. We have similar issues going on. I'm also a guitarist with RSI symptoms.

For me some of the worst advice I got was being told that I had ulnar nerve entrapment and nerves don't heal quickly. Also that I had caused problems with bad guitar posture that had taken me years to form, and caused blockage to the nerves in the neck, so I couldn't expect to get over this quickly. I promptly got worse and took off work for 3 months!

As I've accepted the TMS diagnosis I've been able to play my 4 1/2 hour solo guitar gig on the weekends and the general trend is that I've gotten better with some ups and downs.

I also have fear as I've been increasing other activities as well as practicing more, but I keep reminding myself that it is TMS and I've been able to do the extra activities and still play.

This is a great place to get advice and encouragement from others on the same healing path. Hope you'll keep posting as you progress.

All the best

 

[Walt Oleksy (RIP 2021)]

Jazzblues cat, you're doing great so fast. Don' t think nobody cares, because we here do, as you can see
from the replies so far.

I feel I'm closer to people on the forums than I am to my relatives and many of my friends. They never
ask how I'm doing or what I'm doing. Well, maybe a few do, but most of them are on their own planets
and I'm on his one.

Isn't it something, how with more electronic ways to communicate, most people are communicating less?
Except on TMSWiki. We're communicating great with each other.