Do you manage to identify the emotions linked to your pain?
This was not an easy question for me to understand. I had to think quite a lot about it.
I live with two main types of pain: lower back pain and body-wide burning sensations.
I have other symptoms, but they are secondary and don’t prevent me from living, unlike the two main ones.
I really had to reflect in order to identify the emotions I feel… I had to think about something for which the answer was actually right in front of me.
I think this shows me how disconnected I am from my emotions.
The emotions I feel when the pain is present are:
First, fear. Even though I understand more and more about TMS every day and I’m convinced of it, this fear is still there, along with tension in my body and a feeling of tightness in my chest.
I can even feel energy and tension circulating through my body.
There is also a certain restlessness, a need to stay active so I don’t think about it, a need to escape. And sometimes a deep fatigue.
I would say fear is the dominant emotion, but I also sometimes feel frustration, like “not again… it’s back…”
When my fear level becomes overwhelming, I either feel deep sadness and cry, or I become angry and irritated with myself, my brain, and my nervous system.
There is also a feeling of discouragement mixed in.
Answering this question took me time, reflection, and analysis.
If I had answered immediately without thinking, I would have said that I feel nothing, or almost nothing.
If I had to explain why I don’t feel them, I would say it’s because I am too focused on the pain, I tend to overanalyze, I don’t know how to recognize my emotions, and I am used to pushing through and overriding them.
This question was difficult for me, but I think I have managed to answer it.
This was not an easy question for me to understand. I had to think quite a lot about it.
I live with two main types of pain: lower back pain and body-wide burning sensations.
I have other symptoms, but they are secondary and don’t prevent me from living, unlike the two main ones.
I really had to reflect in order to identify the emotions I feel… I had to think about something for which the answer was actually right in front of me.
I think this shows me how disconnected I am from my emotions.
The emotions I feel when the pain is present are:
First, fear. Even though I understand more and more about TMS every day and I’m convinced of it, this fear is still there, along with tension in my body and a feeling of tightness in my chest.
I can even feel energy and tension circulating through my body.
There is also a certain restlessness, a need to stay active so I don’t think about it, a need to escape. And sometimes a deep fatigue.
I would say fear is the dominant emotion, but I also sometimes feel frustration, like “not again… it’s back…”
When my fear level becomes overwhelming, I either feel deep sadness and cry, or I become angry and irritated with myself, my brain, and my nervous system.
There is also a feeling of discouragement mixed in.
Answering this question took me time, reflection, and analysis.
If I had answered immediately without thinking, I would have said that I feel nothing, or almost nothing.
If I had to explain why I don’t feel them, I would say it’s because I am too focused on the pain, I tend to overanalyze, I don’t know how to recognize my emotions, and I am used to pushing through and overriding them.
This question was difficult for me, but I think I have managed to answer it.