Hi all, I'm truly hoping, 14 years after getting debilitating pain after surgery on a varicocele (which is something like a varicose vein in the testicle), there's hope. I've discovered TMS is a thing, and that the mind may be responsible for some or even all of this pain... My story starts when I was about 25, when I would have occasional, passing pain in one testicle. Five years later I see a doctor and have surgery to correct a varicocele - a supposedly simple operation. However, from the moment of slowly waking up from the general anaesthetic (me: "it hurts!", nurse: "it's not meant to hurt, you still have anaesthetic in you!"), to now, 14 years on, I've had pain in the left testicle, occasionally in my left leg and foot, and sometimes my left upper body and left side of my head is super-sensitive to touch. Triggers are compressing the muscle around the scar, such as when lifting my leg up, or lying on my left side. Running and jumping are also definitely off the cards as this also brings about the pain for days or weeks (no more tennis, which I loved, for example). The testicle and scar area are sensitive to the slightest touch. The pain also comes if I have the flu. Lastly, I feel vibrations from machinery through my left foot far more than my right foot, which can also induce the pain. I've seen a pain specialist, urologists and family doctors and had ultrasounds, and no-one has has been able to state the reason, apart from "possible damage to a nerve during surgery". Therefore I've always assumed the pain will be with me for ever, since nerves can't heal. But my hope is that at least some of the pain is induced by my mind, catastrophising my situation: I really didn't need that surgery, as the original pain was infrequent - I only had the surgery as I was pushed into it by my then-partner, as she wanted kids and varicoceles can be a cause of infertility. I hold a grudge against my ex for this, which is another negative emotion I'm caught up in. Oh, and I resent the surgeon for making the mistake of severing my nerve! I tend to get stressed and angry sometimes too. The question is, can it be TMS, or partly TMS causing this chronic pain, even though there are very clear physical triggers? Is there hope? Thanks for listening!