I think this is a sign I am starting to really accept the TMS diagnosis. Today I went for a 20 minute "fast walk" in the park. Slower seems to hurt more. I wanted air and exercise. I listened to upbeat music and for a few moments, my mind was off the pain, so I wasn't feeling it. I pushed through and it felt good (emotionally if not physically). I even jogged a few feet to say "i can do this". It hurt more than walking. I haven't run in years (after what I now think may have been a TMS knee thing). One day I'd like to again. Of course, my mind says, you shouldn't have run. Though the pain is no worse now than it was before my walk. I'm going through some pretty rough stuff right now, and I can't say it's been the easiest life overall either. I dont want to be wallowing, but I feel so sad and think, its not fair how hard things have always been.Or when they are good, then they tank eventually. I don't want to wallow, but I'm so sad and scared.