I've been finding the journaling to be helpful. I've always known that writing in a journal is mentally therapeutic, but I have never stuck to it as a habit in my life. This back-pain of mine may just be the motivation to make writing a habit. I've noticed that I feel more emotional now than I can remember being lately. The back-pain comes and goes in waves, and I'm starting to notice it more when I am "triggered" by something stressful. I've noticed more feelings of anxiety in my chest, that is actually there for most of my day. I don't really like it and probably repressed it in the past. I have brief periods of time where the anxiety isn't there and I feel quite peaceful, but the anxiety bothers me most of the time.
I'm even on vacation right now and I find I can't quite completely relax. I feel like I should be doing this or that, and I put pressure on myself. At least I realize that now, and am aware of it. However, I don't like putting so much pressure on myself and wish I would lighten up a bit.
I'm even on vacation right now and I find I can't quite completely relax. I feel like I should be doing this or that, and I put pressure on myself. At least I realize that now, and am aware of it. However, I don't like putting so much pressure on myself and wish I would lighten up a bit.
