Hugh
New Member
I've definitely had my ups and downs. Two weeks ago I had the most peaceful week of my life, followed by a week of emotional tosses and turns. Regardless, I feel that I have made significant progress. I have been thinking psychological more and more and realizing that it is mostly my current personality mixed with my current stressors that are causing my pain, and that I have been blaming my past situations as a way to avoid thinking about my personality traits that have been causing TMS.
On a physical level, I went out on a huge limb and hiked for 7 miles on Monday. Not bad for someone who was terrified to get on an elliptical 2 months ago. I literally felt on top of the world after this and started hiking the next day. I ended up getting some sharp pain after 5 minutes of hiking the next day, probably because I was so scared that I was over doing it. This pain has stuck with me all week, but I have kept on doing the elliptical. I am starting to realize that I need way more balance in my life and I need these times to get out and exercise/ get away. In reading Ozanich's book I'm also realizing that I need some way to burn off all this stored and generated tension, pushing me to keep up this exercising. I'm committed to 20 minutes on the elliptical 4 days a week regardless of how I feel. It's scary to take my attention off the pain and push through, but I want my life back.
As far as my finger pain, I have been typing with all my fingers again and still somewhat scared to push the envelop on this pain. I have been focusing more on my back pain and am trusting that my finger pain will get better as I make more progress in journaling/reading/exercising/ and simply getting more balanced.
On a physical level, I went out on a huge limb and hiked for 7 miles on Monday. Not bad for someone who was terrified to get on an elliptical 2 months ago. I literally felt on top of the world after this and started hiking the next day. I ended up getting some sharp pain after 5 minutes of hiking the next day, probably because I was so scared that I was over doing it. This pain has stuck with me all week, but I have kept on doing the elliptical. I am starting to realize that I need way more balance in my life and I need these times to get out and exercise/ get away. In reading Ozanich's book I'm also realizing that I need some way to burn off all this stored and generated tension, pushing me to keep up this exercising. I'm committed to 20 minutes on the elliptical 4 days a week regardless of how I feel. It's scary to take my attention off the pain and push through, but I want my life back.
As far as my finger pain, I have been typing with all my fingers again and still somewhat scared to push the envelop on this pain. I have been focusing more on my back pain and am trusting that my finger pain will get better as I make more progress in journaling/reading/exercising/ and simply getting more balanced.
