It's been a couple of weeks since I started this TMS trip, and on days like today, when my pain has increased, I feel almost panic-stricken. I've been fighting acute anxiety all day - all week really. So I'm trying to take a step back and look at the big picture, to help silence the negativity in my head. At the beginning, I was limping and/or on crutches due to the pain in my right foot. I tried to walk my dog every day, but some days I'd turn back after half a block, because the pain was so acute I was worried I would hurt myself further. I was going to physical therapy twice a week but had stopped making progress, so my therapists sent me for an MRI. I occasionally took pain meds in the evening. Since then, I walk every day, pushing through any tightness. I find that I get looser and smoother the further I walk. Today I did a mile. I jog part of the route, which gets my dog very excited! I do some simple weightlifting when I get home using a theraband, so I have muscle tone for the first time since June. I also have plenty of pain, which has increased since the MRI results (a false positive for issues with my healed ankle bone), and that does get me extremely anxious. Weird thing is, the pain is moving all over - inside of the ankle, top of the foot, toes, arch, and since the false positive, outside of the ankle. And the other foot has started hurting in all those places too - what the heck, brain! So, today is rough. I'm starting to realize that my focus on the physical is distracting me from some pretty heavy emotional burdens: loneliness, anxiety, worry about family, the pain of rejection. No wonder the pain keeps coming back. I hope, I feel, I'm on the cusp of a breakthough in this journey. At least tomorrow is chocolate chip pancake day.