The journaling has brought out some anger that was hiding behind sadness even during years of therapy. Why now, I think the permission to feel anger that is part of the recovery program is significant here. Working through early life traumas seems essential to my healing. But the daily stresses generated by my personal relationships and self abuse seem to be strongly in play right now. The increase in my "sciatic" pain of late feels related to that, hope it's also an extinction burst.