I believe I am suffering from what Dr Sarno called Programming. I wondered how people had successfully beaten that part of TMS. I have had some amazing but very short reductions in the back pain I have had form most of the last five years. The only success I have had is from either talking to a therapist or journalling. I had another success last night from writing about being angry with my mum from scattering my dad's ashes in the back garden of the now former family home, rather than somewhere more public that I could go to reflect on his death (he died after a five week battle with multiple advanced cancer, which we believe started in the throat). I have had other short reductions in pain to talking or writing about other emotional things - mostly either anger or guilt. The good part is that it shows that the pain is TMS, but it is driving me insane to have the pain come back, sometimes stronger than it was previously. I am not against trying either hypnosis or meditation or something else, but I cannot deal with this amount of pain for much longer. I should also maybe point out that in a little over four weeks I will be going to travel round parts of the USA for four weeks, and am frightened the pain (and dizziness) I am suffering from will completely ruin what is shaping up to be a really exciting and amazing trip.