Since starting this programme I feel less obsessed with my pain. I haven’t googled my symptoms for more than a week now. I’m focusing less on the physical symptoms and more on my emotions and anxiety levels. One big thing I’ve noticed is that my pain levels are lower when I’m distracted or busy. I’m seeing my pain as less of a barrier now. I’m achieving new records in my running and finding myself able to do things that I couldn’t previously do in my job as a teacher. I also haven’t taken any painkillers since started this programme. I used to take pain medication daily before. One big thing that I think is stopping me from getting better is my fear of opening up to people. I rarely share how I’m really feeling with people. If I’m upset or angry for any reason I tend to hide these feelings away and just pretend to be happy because I don’t want to bother anybody with my problems. I don’t really know why I do this. I feel like I’ve been doing it my whole life. I’m making an effort to change this but it takes time.