Firstly I would like to thank everyone involved in maintaining this site. It has been pivotal to me, and brought me much further along my road to recovery than I would have managed on my own. Here are some positive things that have happened since I started the SEP: 1) although I still have pain most of the time, the really hard times have diminished, and I'm becoming more alert to those moments when I sink into "why", immediately turning my attention to "psychological". A few times I've laughed as I realise I've just been thinking about something in the past or difficult to resolve or anything really that fits the TMS pattern. 2) I have stopped talking about my pain. I have gone so far as to ask people to talk about something else with me, when they bring the subject up. 3) a girlfriend said to me "I don't believe in all that mindfulness mumbo-jumbo" - so I resolved not to share my journey with her, merely listen to hers. I mean to say - I am sure that I am on the right path, if someone else thinks its not right, that's OK. 4) I have answered back when my mom said "you've always been a bad girl" - I told her she knew that wasn't true, and she laughed. I had an inkling then that this has been a game we've been playing. 5) I have dropped my involvement in a voluntary group. In the past I stuck it out with things. 6) Daily exercise and daily journaling are a priority now. 7) I plan to move on to the Presence Project when I complete the SEP. 8) I am noticing more when the pain moves around - always before insufferable low back pain, now an aching arm, carpal tunnel numbness in the other, stiff feet. I ignore it all, and get on with life. 9) I'm spending more on experiences, and less on things. 10) I am travelling way further, and realise I can nearly do a very busy day. 11) my sleep is way better 12) I'm taking much less medication.