ANGER! It's definitely been anger. I should specify. It is really more rage. I have a slew of emotions tied to the whole "not being good enough" thing. I'm afraid I'm not good enough morally, professionally, or in regards to my family. However, I don't think I've repressed those emotions as much over time. My rage on the other hand...I have always felt extreme anger is primitive and irrational, like a relic from humanity's earlier times. I saw how it made my parents scream and yell and say hurtful things in a handful of really bad fights. So, I always thought I should strive to bury such negative feelings whenever they show up. Now, I'm trying to feel the rage I repressed for about a dozen past events and it is hard! I've always been scared of rage because I don't want to hurt people. Letting it out makes me feel like I'm going to snap. However, I'm quickly finding its better out than in. Keeping it in has made me act out against people without really noticing it. Letting it out is difficult at first while I'm thinking/writing about it, but then quickly feels better. So, far I have been able to just acknowledge the rage and move on. Hopefully, I can continue.