Okay, so today I watched the video that explained more about the physiological way in which TMS manifests itself, and so I want to just air my own 'doubts,' as I see them, although I face these down every day. I went to see an expert podiatrist in my local area; prodded and pushed and did a 'Tinel's test,' to check for tarsal tunnel syndrome (with which I was later diagnosed). He said, 'I have no idea what this is.' He did tell me, as I remember in hindsight, to keep on walking as I wouldn't do any damage, and to ignore the pain. Maybe he guessed what it was but didn't like to posit. I went to see another podiatrist. She did the tuning fork test to check for stress fractures, got me to stand on tip-toe, various things. Same conclusion - 'bit strange,' she said. I had two x-rays, convinced I had something called a 'Jones fracture.' Nothing showed up on either. I went for an ultrasound. Absolutely nothing appeared, despite me saying, 'it hurts here,' - he put the device on it, 'nothing,' he'd say, 'and here,' and so he'd do it again and nothing, 'and all up here.' Nothing. I left in tears. Then, in January, I went and saw another podiatrist who diagnosed me with about six different things, all of which she got from prodding and pressing and me standing on tip-toe and her flexing the foot at the ankle and noticing muscle stiffness. So, no imaging test has ever showed a thing structurally wrong with my foot. I then felt huge relief and joy when I was 'diagnosed' because I felt that finally someone had validated all that I'd gone through the past year, but the stretching and the exercises which I did for about eight weeks did absolutely nothing. I went back and even she said, 'that's a bit strange,' before repeating her advice to continue with it all, plus a pair of orthotics which still didn't do anything. So, I now take heart from the initial, 'can't find a thing / how weird,' experiences I had, but am now struggling to reverse the feelings I had when someone did say, 'you've got this, this, this, this and this.' Part of me still wants to push for an MRI, just to 'be sure.' As I work through the SEP, I can see I have repressed anger and I tend to intellectualise and answer with thoughts, rather than feelings. I remember after my dad died that I decided not to cry because if I did, I wouldn't stop. I lose my rag at drivers who cut me up, members of the public, people on telly. I can have quite disproportionately upset reactions to things - I took the bumper off my car a few weeks ago and rather than go, 'oh well,' I absolutely lost it, virtually screaming in the face of someone walking past who made a quip. The anger, when it's allowed a shot at legitimate expression, comes shooting out like lava. I can see I fear change and moving on; I panic when people move away, when things end or evolve into something else. There's a big thing about change and progress and the 'security' I get from making no progress within my own life. So, I can see that there are some very relevant emotional issues going on. I don't deal in feelings, remain largely numb and deal in punchlines, sarcasm and intellectualisation more than emotion. I also have a huge problem with saying no and tend to feel responsible for the sadness and misfortune of those around me, sometimes walking on eggshells to try to 'make things better.' So, you know, a big part of me really does believe this is TMS! The only thing I feel could be structural is functional hallux limitus, which is proving the more overriding pain in this all. That is something involving joints and bones. Any thoughts would be really appreciated.