I can hardly believe I've been doing the SEP for a month. I'm doing much better physically. I still tend to get pain with walking, but less and less, and I am walking more and more. A while ago in HabitRPG (an online to-do game, if you don't know it) I set myself a goal to walk a half mile or more every day. Recently I bumped that up to 3/4 mile and most days I do it. Since the day that I gardened standing up for two hours, I haven't worried about standing. I'm still not running or hiking (both have a lot of fear around them) but I have been doing yoga and pilates occasionally. A few days ago I had an insight into my level of fear of having no impact/control/influence and how it plays into my perfectionism and often rule-bound behavior. I've also been doing more meditation/relaxation stuff which seems to help me generally. The SEP materials are very helpful, I'm thinking I might keep re-reading the ones that really resonate for a while. From yesterday's (Day 29) I especially liked the point that it's not the we don't know our feelings, but that we don't feel them, that's the problem. I think that will help me stop overthinking how I must be feeling, and focus on the actual experience more. I'm still cautious-to-fearful with curbs and stairs, though, and certain activities that I think are "risky" like yoga are more likely to trigger symptoms. Whenever I have a momentary twinge of pain in my ankle, I start to worry again. This kind of thinking tends to lapse me back into TMS-land for a while, I start the cycle of worrying about whether I'm "done for the day" or if I "hurt something in there". If I can ignore a twinge, it's usually just a twinge, but it's hard to do. I'm not as firm with the "You're not really hurt, your foot is strong" thoughts as I was back when I had RSI, because it's been such a fight for me to believe that my ankle pain is really TMS and not a leftover injury. I think I could just use a little support right now. I know what I need to do, I'm just having some trouble doing it.