End of December, I developed what I thought was an ovarian cyst. Rather, I *know* so I didn’t go to the gyn. Symptoms persisted during ovulation since then of bladder pressure, feeling like my ovary is going to explode out my hip while urinating (lol that’s the only way to describe how intense it is), and some pain down my thigh. When I had a cyst last year, it was constant and horrible but this is nothing like that. I’ve had issues with this ovary since, well, menarche. She’s “special”. That hip area is where I store all my trauma, so it’s no coincidence. I’ve also had additional hormonal symptoms that are unusual for me (no, not pregnant, before anyone suggests). I’m resisting so much going to the doctor. Hormonal symptoms are classic TMS, and I have endometriosis anyway. I committed myself so much to TMS (and to stop my doctor addiction) that I switched my insurance to so it’d be uber expensive to see a doctor. So if I do go, I have to want to be out of hundreds of dollars...which will never happen because I’m cheap. Of course this is all coming up probably because I started trauma therapy for PTSD and my brain is saying “No, please don’t discover xyz, it’s icky!!” It’s been a wild ride so far. My immediate reaction is to get an ultrasound and blood test. But I want to stick with TMS. I guess I need some reassurance (especially from women) that I should stop seeking physical answers. I just started Wim Hof Method because it’s a nice compliment to TMS and it’s good for all this stuff, we’ll see how it goes.