For today's journal activity free write about perfectionism and how it affects your life. I haven’t usually identified myself as a perfectionist because everything I work on is far from perfect but I think that’s not what the word the implies as much as holding yourself to very high standards which I do. I tend to think that every hour of the day should be spent productively and I want my work to outshine others. These traits feed into a feeling of guilt when I fall short. I’m not feeling perfectionist these days since it seems most of my efforts lead nowhere. I suppose I could be perfectionist in the pursuit of better health. It’s just a trait that it’s so hard to let go of the idea of getting my life to a better place. On a positive side I have gotten more accustomed to feeling my emotions and not fighting them which feeds into not being perfectionist. I am getting sick of feeling sad though. I guess exhausted by feeling sad so much is more accurate. It’s not so much the perfectionism that’s the problem as the expectation that their will be a reward if the work is good enough. I don’t want to be a little kid waiting for praise anymore. Perfectionism has definitely contributed to my TMS by not allowing me to accept the tension. If I had accepted it then I would never have sunk myself into this hole. I suppose the answer to my problems is more acceptance. Have you noticed any positive changes in your life since you have started this program? Decreased tension in my legs and my head feeling more on top of my neck.