Hi friends,
I'm going to condense this as much as possible.
I'm a 27 y/o female and have been dealing with a relapse of pelvic pain/vulvodynia after ridding myself of it COMPLETELY with this work. Also, get ready for some TMI.
My original symptoms presented years ago, as a teen, as pretty severe, localized nerve pain in my vulvar area years ago. No doc knew what the hell it was. And trust me, I saw EVERYONE, over a long period of time. All it got me was horrific medical PTSD and unnecessary testing.
Pain came and went for years w/o explanation--this is before I knew about TMS. About 3.5 years ago I had a relapse of this pain after it had been randomly gone for ages. During this flare, I developed a "new" symptom: skin sensations--rawness, dryness. Not as upsetting as the primary nerve pain, but still unpleasant and a great example of a symptom imperative.
After discovering this work, I was able to be 100% pain/skin sensation free in about 8 months. I then went on to have over a year of total comfort. I was elated and thrilled. Occasionally, I'd feel a little symptom flicker, but I'd be able to banish it in a manner of minutes. Fast forward to a little over a year later (Dec. 2019), and I experienced my first big relapse...and am still in it. The "newer" skin sensations have taken over this time, fear-wise. I'm constantly worried that this time it's NOT TMS and there's some scary thing going on down there. But then, I remind myself of why it's TMS:
-it will dramatically lessen and flair back up, almost always along with my emotions
-Stress makes it worse
-Sometimes it switches "sides"
-the fact that I completely got rid of it before
I'm honestly a little embarrassed posting this because the answers are right here in front of me. Emotionally, I have waaaaay more stressors going on in my life than when I banished it a couple years ago, which is why the imperative of these skin sensations are taking more of a hold. It's a way for me to hang onto this so I don't have to face this other life stuff.
However, especially since last fall, I have had so many instances of both the skin and nerve sensations dropping SO LOW that I literally feel 80-90% better. Again, this is usually always linked to positive emotions. And then, it comes right back. So this is the cycle I'm in right now.
I do feel positive about this, deep down, but would LOVE LOVE LOVE some insight into how to not fear a relapse/symptom imperative. I'm very thankful for the low-pain moments I have had w/in this relapse, but need that extra boost to get me through to the other side 100%.
I love this site and the amazing people on here. So many times it has helped my anxiety.
I'm going to condense this as much as possible.
I'm a 27 y/o female and have been dealing with a relapse of pelvic pain/vulvodynia after ridding myself of it COMPLETELY with this work. Also, get ready for some TMI.
My original symptoms presented years ago, as a teen, as pretty severe, localized nerve pain in my vulvar area years ago. No doc knew what the hell it was. And trust me, I saw EVERYONE, over a long period of time. All it got me was horrific medical PTSD and unnecessary testing.
Pain came and went for years w/o explanation--this is before I knew about TMS. About 3.5 years ago I had a relapse of this pain after it had been randomly gone for ages. During this flare, I developed a "new" symptom: skin sensations--rawness, dryness. Not as upsetting as the primary nerve pain, but still unpleasant and a great example of a symptom imperative.
After discovering this work, I was able to be 100% pain/skin sensation free in about 8 months. I then went on to have over a year of total comfort. I was elated and thrilled. Occasionally, I'd feel a little symptom flicker, but I'd be able to banish it in a manner of minutes. Fast forward to a little over a year later (Dec. 2019), and I experienced my first big relapse...and am still in it. The "newer" skin sensations have taken over this time, fear-wise. I'm constantly worried that this time it's NOT TMS and there's some scary thing going on down there. But then, I remind myself of why it's TMS:
-it will dramatically lessen and flair back up, almost always along with my emotions
-Stress makes it worse
-Sometimes it switches "sides"
-the fact that I completely got rid of it before
I'm honestly a little embarrassed posting this because the answers are right here in front of me. Emotionally, I have waaaaay more stressors going on in my life than when I banished it a couple years ago, which is why the imperative of these skin sensations are taking more of a hold. It's a way for me to hang onto this so I don't have to face this other life stuff.
However, especially since last fall, I have had so many instances of both the skin and nerve sensations dropping SO LOW that I literally feel 80-90% better. Again, this is usually always linked to positive emotions. And then, it comes right back. So this is the cycle I'm in right now.
I do feel positive about this, deep down, but would LOVE LOVE LOVE some insight into how to not fear a relapse/symptom imperative. I'm very thankful for the low-pain moments I have had w/in this relapse, but need that extra boost to get me through to the other side 100%.
I love this site and the amazing people on here. So many times it has helped my anxiety.
